I sit here and I ask myself if the fear is really worth it. Let me add here that I'm not talking about fear that protects us say from crossing a busy street with a blindfold on. I'm talking about fear that holds us back, debilitates us, cements us like stone to where we currently stand, unable to move another step.
My spiritual growth and studies have led me to so many people who suffer this type of fear everyday. I am no exception. It sometimes places you almost into a catatonic state, one in which you feel as if moving is not at all possible. Whether it's fear of leaving an unhealthy relationship, a job that doesn't allow you to live your passion or anything really, it holds you to your spot like superglue. Day after day turns into month after month, then it's onto year after year of feeling stuck.
Most of the time the fear isn't even rational. I mean, how do we KNOW we should fear something we have never even tried? I remember how I used to freeze with fright over the mere thought of public speaking. I used to envision various scenarios from passing out, to losing control of myself and running off the stage uncontrollably. On the other hand, I felt that I was in a strange predicament because I was being called to ministry. Kind of difficult to be a minister or teacher of any kind if you can't speak in public! I knew the only way to move past it was to actually TRY it, to literally just jump and trust that my parachute would open. The opportunity presented itself when my minister asked if I would deliver the lesson to the congregation in her absence.
Knees quivering (thank goodness for pants with wide legs), armpits dripping and hands shaking, I approached the platform and something amazing happened. No, my nerves didn't calm down right away, but a voice began pouring out from my body. It almost felt as if someone else had started speaking. I looked out at the crowd (81 people that day) and eyes were on me. Some were nodding their heads, others staring at me, absorbing the words I was saying.
I could go on about my experience but the lesson was this...it was NOT as bad as I had imagined it. My fear was completely unsubstantiated and completely irrational. I found there was simply no reason to fear something that I had never yet tried. The lesson I learned that day is that I was on the right path and that I may have never found that out if I hadn't taken that leap. I felt on fire that day. I felt as if I was walking on air. I found that public speaking fired me up and I was assured that yes, I was on the right path.
Maybe it's now time for you. What are you afraid of? Maybe it's time for you to yell out, "Enough already!" and to just do it.
I will take the leap with you.